Monday, November 29, 2010

Lethean Tears

The man with the kick ass voice Christian Avelstam- ex-Scar Symmetry, Solution .45, Miseration


Today wasn't as depressing as planned everyone gave out their respect and dressed nicely for the occasion. I was filled with sadness watching some of those people give our their love when they stood at the memorial by either placing flowers or just coming by to give their respect. It was an emotionally draining day but I feel pretty good for being there for others today I got mascara on my sleeves (and no I don't wear make-up :p ) and tear soaked shoulders so I feel like I did something today that helped people.




During fifth period Nick decide to call me in the middle of class knowing that I don't get out till 3 so he didn't take the decision as well as planned he was freaking out about the whole situation asking me why I thought he shouldn't be in the band when he already knew why he was being kicked out! To make it worse I had this random white bitch yelling at me while on the phone trying to talk to Nick asking why her homeboy was kicked out of the band *facepalm* white people suck sometimes they really do..... So wednesday we having this new guy come in for vocal tryouts which should be interesting. But I just wanna say how proud I am of our nerd love school that's willing help out one another in times like this good fellow nerdies. Heres a song I would like all of you to check it's not extremely heavy or anything but affects me emotionally I was listening to it today while at the memorial with Hannah, Sheree, and Randi it fit the situation so well I just about cried.



Sunday, November 28, 2010

The End of Happiness (For Now)



After a tragic Thanksgiving and noticing just about everyone at UCAS gave their hearts out about Karalee made me realize were all just one big family cause were such a small school even if we do hate and betray each other at times but hey so does my real family so good job to everyone who is gonna support the memorial tomorrow. This death in our family will teach us how to appreciate life better because we all got each-other at times like these. I know I plan on being there for anyone no matter who they are. I even got some poinsettias to put at the tree tomorrow and I'll be dressing in nice clothes (like Aeropostle or something that looks nice) even though I have no clean church clothes (ironic I know). This did though truly brought us all together it even made me get rid of my demons and started to talk to Shay again about what we been up to and how we can help the memorial. 





Another rough thing to add for tomorrow is helping Bryan and Danny bring the news to Nick that he won't be doing vocals in V:I:C it's just he hasn't improved in the time that he's been with the band. We talked about it and me and Bryan came to a compromise that he still could contribute to us with lyrics and management but no singing period. So I'm hoping he doesn't pull a Dave Mustaine (use to be guitarist for Metallica back in the day). 





But hey I feel somewhat accomplished today I got some homework done, helped my mom paint the hallway, started some of my own lyrics, and got a cute girl to get into Tool, Slipknot, Protest the Hero, Periphery and Queens of The Stone Age. So I'm kinda happy to go back though because I get to see my friends Nina, Elio, Caleb and others. So now I'm gonna head to bed and hopefully survive the day tomorrow Peace.

U of U Hell Ya



Well clearly today anyone who is either a Ute or Cougar fan know that the holy war went on today which is one of the few sports events that I actually give a damn about and it was no duh Utes wons!!!! Ha eat it BYU!!!!!




Well anywho today I got to get up early to go air soft shooting and shot the stupid out of everyone till Bronson started having a temper tantrum from hell about boundaries of the area where we play and a fight almost broke out so the morning kinda ended ugly. But I get home and today was another band practice to go to but it was late because we were suppose to get a photographer but he cancelled! So I'm stuck in a really bad situation but I knew this time would come but I had a hour conversation with fellow bandmate Bryan about well......kicking nick out of the band. I kinda went dead for a second just thinking about because well he was part of the reason why I'm even in the band and we already got a reserved gig over at Deathstar but we all knew that in the end that Nick will hold us back so its like one of those situations in life where you sometimes have to let go of someone that's keeping you back from getting to where you wanna be in life as heartless as it's sound I've yet to meet someone who hasn't been in the same sticky situation as I am in right now. Well that's all I got to post about for now I'm extremely tired and hitting the hay and oh ya Nina if your reading this I was meaning to ask since your kickass at photo taking and have an awesome camera it would be awesome if sometime you could possibly take photos of my band that is IF you want to and it would be great if you can I'll even pay thanks love ya!.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving




Hmm well to start I just have to say I'm grateful for


My Mom who raised me and my three other siblings on her own 
Nina, Britt, Randi, Elio, Caleb, Ernesto, and my other close friends who I know won't leave me at my worse because they know I wouldn't 
My three siblings Nate, Amber and Chelsey who all have their own form of annoying the hell out of me but I can't live without them 
Music that makes my image 
The fact I'm still around and had some close calls that almost changed that 
Video Games to keep me entertained and my mind off of things 
That I don't live in poverty standards and have the basic needs of life. 
The right to believe in whatever the hell I want, say whatever the hell I want, protest for whatever the hell I want, so basically do whatever the hell I want (to a certain extent) 
That I survived through abuse, neglect, a broken heart, depression, death of a love one, school (so far), being ridiculed for not being a sheep, and other painful stepping stones I gone through. 
That everyday is something new to learn about 


There's so much that I'm thankful in life the list goes on.







So today I woke up to my dad yelling GET UP GAY BOY! My first response was gonna be EAT A DICK OLD MAN but my mom was nearby...... He told me how were gonna do something this Saturday and that he will HOPEFULLY get a job at Delta Airlines which means free flights for me and Chelsey HELL YA! I know I shouldn't get my hopes up just yet cause he won't know for a month whether he gets the job or not but he has a good chance because his brother works there too. So the instant he told me that I was thinking : MAINE, AND ALL OF EUROPE! He wants the job so that Chelsey and I can go to Brazil for free this summer that is IF he gets the job and if I get my passport which I was told is a bitch to get these days. 







So to celebrate this holiday that's sugar coated with Charlie Brown and other cute stuff I went to my grandparents! I didn't have any breakfast so I was dying of starvation then dinner started and I called dibs on a leg A WHOLE GOD DAMN LEG!! Along with that I had a mountain of mash potatoes, sweet potatoes, rolls, and other many many good stuff which includes pumpkin pie which Thanksgiving is nothing without . I can guess that my meal was over a good 5000 calories if not more. Chelsey was being so self conscious the whole time about getting fat it's the freaking holidays sis your not suppose to care about weight! Just shut up and eat some pie :D. 











Sadly this day came to a sad closing for I was told by Jerica that a UCAS student by the name of KaraLee along with her father died today in a tragic accident. It was so mind blowing to hear that she was gone I never really knew her well just that I saw her everyday and that she was my friend's cousin. It was a terrible shame that she had to leave I could tell she was pretty popular with everyone and I wish I could of gotten to know her before today. I know without a doubt that no UCAS kid will forget this Thanksgiving so I hope only the best for KaraLee's family including my friend of course who I plan on being there for. Peace.


The Union


Well I finally have something to talk about. Lately drug related topics have been brought up by everyone whether it's positive or negative. So Nate told me about this documentary and the War on Drugs episode of Penn and Teller's Bullshit! to watch which really opened my eyes about drugs and some of the untold side stories that the government didn't mention in the studies of Marijuana. Just to mention before watching this and doing other research on the subject I always thought the  prohibition of weed or any other drugs aka the "War on Drugs" is a terrible waste of taxpayers money. I can name many reasons why it's stupid but if you really wanna know just ask. 
Well it's finally Thanksgiving break and so far I been spending it by playing some Black Ops, reading some amazing novels, made more demos with my band, had a major realization about life, and sleeping in. 

So I'm sure everyone I know has at least heard of or watched Jerry Springer, Murray, Steve Wilkos or some talk show like that were it's questionable that it's real or not. I usually hate these shows but for some reason I was on youtube and just started to watch some Steve Wilkos clips mainly on parents who abandon or neglect their kids. If these cases are true then sweet merciful CHRIST on a stick I never felt so grateful for the situation I'm in right now! Well hope everyone has a awesome Thanksgiving and not to get too fat on some pie peace.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

White Mastodon

White Elephant!
I had such an amazing night I got to hang out with Elio and Nina who I rarely ever see out of school. We went and supported Elio's sister's band White Elephant who were amazing!! I can't empathize enough how great some of these Indie bands are,you people need to check them out and your hearing this from a metalhead! This night totally made me thought about so many things that which I wont post on here :p




This upcoming week is finally Thanksgiving break which I feel like I could use one and relax and kick some zombie ass on black ops. Seriously though Nina thanks again for coming I didn't think ya would it was so great to hang out with ya I wish we could chill more often :(. So this Tuesday I get to record some more demos with my band. I'm so very excited with these new recordings we can hopefully get more shows and get our songs down! Well I'm gonna head out and watch some Codemonkeys? Perhaps listen to Slayer?? Peace. P.S. I seriously will try and finish my Family/Friends Series I totally spaced that.
(Codemonkeys) New Favorite Show 
Tom Araya of Slayer 

Sunday, November 14, 2010

VIC: Something Worth Fighting For

*SIGH* *PUNTS KITTEN* Another week starts tomorrow which I'm totally not ready for because I didn't do any of my homework and it's like whats the point honestly? I know I'm not cut for this shit.
What I had for breakfast the day of the performance I got so sick....

These babies are tuned and ready for some stage action!



Any who my first band performance was on Friday at Mt. View it was pretty stressful at first because one Nick and Gabi kept forgetting the lyrics. 2. The bass was having major hardware issues and I had only five minutes to fix it before going on stage which some how I was able to pull it off. 3. We only had about 20 secs to set up all of our stuff on stage but thanks to the whole tech crew class we were all set. 




Although we only got to play one song it went off without a hitch everyone loved us we mostly got very positive feedback. The only negative feedback was that some of the kids in the audience couldn't hear either me or Tyler because we were so spread out throughout the stage and quite a bit of people didn't like Nick's singing much which I thought was kinda sad but I couldn't even hear him while we were playing so I don't even know if he did great or not. 




Tyler's mom even got to record our performance which after we watched it and not once am I ever shown in the video which really really REALLY pissed me off at the time I went off so bad I grabbed one of the chairs in the music room and just threw it as hard as I can against the wall.... Honestly that whole incident did ruin my day I shouldn't let it ruin it but I did. 




Some people didn't really know why I was so mad not only was it my first band performance but it was just one of those moments where I can say hey look I can actually make something out of myself and prove it to others who think I can't do anything right. 




By the way I apologize for everyone who had to deal with my anger issues that day I swear they were so bad I lost count of how many times I said fuck, shit, damn, hell, and other many horrible obscenities. On the bright side when I got home and went down town on some Black Ops and played one zombies match with some friends that lasted for 3 INSANE HOURS OF KICKASSNESS.





From over seven hours of band practice I haven't had these in ages.... 


Saturday I was still pretty steamed about the whole thing but when I went to band practice Bryan told me that actually they just found that two other people recorded us and I'm actually in the recordings! (we plan to have the recording up on Facebook/youtube soon) I gotta say I'm pretty stage friendly compared to Nick and Gabi who were stiff as boards the whole time but I couldn't blame them I would about die if I sang in front of a whole school. 




So as scheduled we had band practice Nick screwed us over and went to do some of that stupid parkour shit I honestly don't get the point of that new fad it's dumb as hell and have fun when you break something like Nick did that day shocker.... So it was just the instrumental people that day probably one of the best practices ever we got so much done and finished 5 songs. Also another side note I plan on hopefully getting my band into the UCAS talent show. 





Well today I didn't do as much as I wanted. The only form of productivity was me giving Toby a bath. Both of my older siblings came over today. I came upstairs Nate, Nicole, and Chelsey were talking to Mom so I joined on the conversation we talked about hair and how we each do ours in the morning which was funny how such a conversation can be held between both the guys and girls. We also talked about well umm lets just say fetus's and leave it at that. 





The main highlight of the conversation was this

Mom: Oh Richard is such a good man he knows how to keep himself in shape and eats nothing but organic foods.

Nate: So he eats Marijuana brownies???




We all just started dying my brother is such a smart ass at times but I freaking love him..








Well I'm heading to bed night all!! Heres some panda love peace.




















Thursday, November 11, 2010

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thunder Bird!!!




I wanna make love to this piece of beauty...

Love at first headshot...


Finally some god time spare time to update my blog woo! So this week has been freaking awesome :D I finally got Black Ops at midnight and made some new nerd friends but thanks to UCAS,UVU, and my band I haven't had much time to play it great.... So tomorrow I'm pretty excited about playing my first show with my band V.I.C. I had to get up at 5 today to get ready and go rehearse at MT. View once again I'm gonna say THANK FREAKING MERCIFUL LUCIFER THAT I DIDN'T GO TO A REGULAR HIGH SCHOOL. I don't care if your school is the so called "best" all Utah high schools suck ass I've mention this before in a earlier post I might add. 









so sexy.... 






The stage I'm playing on 


So right now I got a major headache and I finally got all my parts down for tomorrow ANDDD I got a new bass to play for shows now it's a freaking Epihone Thunder Bird. I got to be up at the same freaking time tomorrow, this weekend I'm not going out period. I'm just gonna sit down at home and play my game :no band practice, no homework, no hanging out with friends, I want some time for myself. Well that's all I got to update about for now so I'm gonna get back to some Black Ops peace out. P.S. Thanks for dealing with my anxiety stress attack from hell Nina I really appreciate it.
That's a lot of people to play in front of can't wait!!!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

What I Wouldn't Give To Be A Lazy Kid Again (Nina Inspired this :D )



Damn I miss my childhood so much sure it wasn't perfect without having my dad around but he still would sometimes once in a while take me up to stay at his place in SLC to go to all those fun peruviano parties.






I miss my first true best friend Andy from elementary who's now living in Tooele I talk to him once in a while but we hopefully plan on meeting in the near by future.


I loved being able to screw around, get in fights, and go into principle's office but still got a A in my class to keep my mom happy. I miss getting out at 2 instead of freaking 4 everyday and would go straight to Andy's to play some Halo.


I loved having friends who at the time would never consider doing
drugs or having sex with random whores till now..






I miss actually feeling alive and happy in any situation.


I knew at that time I was fat as hell but I never cared about my weight or looks till now being the weird person that I am.







I went to Church and actually felt good about going.


Where my only form of drama was Video Game related.










When Nate was still living with us.


There was no social networks or cell phones and other electronic
devices to go crazy about which was a more simple and less stressful time.






Now that's mostly gone now when reality bitch slapped me in the face I hate my dad more than ever, school sucks ass, all my use to be awesome friends don't care about fucking up their lives, some of the drama I deal with is a never ending pit of hell, I'm so highly addicted to all my electronic stuff it's pathetic, I don't plan on going back to church anytime soon, even with Nate out of the house I can't do anything like he did when he was the man of the house I obviously don't deserve that title, I'm still eh about my appearance. I wanna have most (not all) of my childhood moments back just when school was a joke and guys just wanna get together and play some kick ass video games, not talk about getting some 24/7 or being total fakes just to be accepted.

Friday, November 5, 2010

DREADS! DREADS! DREADS!

Shadows Fall



Can't sleep I'm so worried about my Biology test tomorrow I really wanna pass I studied for hours on end and it's like I constantly keep forgetting terms and other crap I have to comprehend. So lately I been doing research and reading up on dreadlocks I really really really want get some so damn badly but the problem is 1. It's against UCAS dress code.....2. No one would hire me pfft assholes I hate our society sometimes I really do.. There just so awesome though here are just a list of all the facts and rumors about dreads. I got it from Dreadlocks.com.








Martin Henriksson (Dark Tranquillity) 









Rumor: You do not wash dreadlocks. Hair must be dirty to dread.




Fact: If you do not wash your hair it will stink. Dreadlocked hair needs to be washed regularly just like un-dreaded hair. You can wash dreads just as you would wash a sponge, by working the soap in and then squeezing and rinsing repeatedly to get all the soap out. Clean hair will actually lock up faster than dirty or oily hair. Because nearly every soap and shampoo on the market contains residues it was thought that clean hair does not dread quickly, when in fact it is the residues (conditioners, moisturizers, builders and fragrance holders) in the soaps that prevent hair from locking up. This is why we recommend washing you dreads only in residue free soaps and shampoos.





Anders Fridèn (In Flames) 







Rumor: Simply not combing your hair is the only way to get nice dreads.




Fact: This is called the neglect method. Under some circumstances simply not combing hair will make it dread. The best example of this is African-textured hair. Left alone, African hair will eventually dread. Unfortunately the results, although technically called dreads, are usually less than pleasing to the eye. The hair forms giant matts at random all over the head. Some Caucasian hair, if it is curly enough, will also dread by neglect but the same problem exists. It takes several years for the hair to lock fully and when it does it generally looks un-kept, kind of like you might expect hair to look after not combing it for a few years. We do have tips in the methods section for caring for you dreads as you neglect them, but please note that the neglect method is not the only way to go about getting dreads and that the dreads you will get are rarely "nice" looking.





Brain Fair (Shadows Fall) 







Rumor: Only black people can have nice dreads. Nice dreads are high maintenance.




Fact: While it is easier for black people to have nice smooth dreads it is completely possible for other hair textures to dread tightly and smoothly. Dreads are difficult to start and the first month is a pain, but as they tighten and mature they become virtually maintenance free. They look great all the time, all you have to do is keep them clean.







Rumor: Natural dreads are those that are made by neglect.




Fact: There are two types of natural dreadlocks. Those that are required by religion to be natural, and natural for you or I, which means non-chemically processed dreads.

If you are Rastafarian or in some sects of middle eastern religions you are required to not interfere with the growth of your dreads. You have probably not seen many truly natural dreads as most of these religions also require that no one, not even your spouse in some cases, see your dreads. These truly natural dreads can be washed but they can not be cut trimmed or ripped in any way and no combing or products can be used to maintain them.






The second type of natural are those dreads that came to be without the use of any chemical processes. You can wash them, cut them, comb them, rip them, tie them and wax them as you like but they are started and grow naturally without any chemical dread perms or synthetic additions. This is what is commonly thought of as natural and what we refer to throughout the site. All methods listed in our methods section are natural methods except for the dread perm. We believe that dreads should be natural and only natural products and methods should be used to care for them. For a list of natural dread products see our Products and Accessories section.





Zoltán Báthory (Five Finger Death Punch) 







Rumor: Rubberbands break hair and can thin dreadlocks.




Fact: Rubberbands used correctly help roots and tips tighten, especially when dreads are new. If rubberbands are applied too tightly they can compress an area of the dread and cause a thin spot. However, proper tension will speed the locking process and prevent loose hairs especially when washing newer dreads.








Zoltán Báthory 







Rumor: Dreads damage your scalp and can lead to thinning hair.




Fact: If cared for using the proper methods and products dreadlocks are actualy a very heathly hairstyle. Natural dreads do not require the use of any chemical processes making them better for your scalp than any hair style that requires your hair to be chemically permed or straightened. The residue free soaps that dreadlocks are washed in actually increase hair growth and cause hair to grow thicker and faster by removing residue from the hair folicles.













Anders Fridèn (In Flames)








Rumor: If you decide you no longer want dreads you have to shave your head.




Fact: It is true that you have to cut dreads to take them out but you do not have to shave your head. You can usually leave at least 2" inches of hair when you cut the dreads, so your hair will be short, but not shaved. 





Martin Henriksson (Dark Tranquillity) 







Rumor: Mayonnaise, Honey, Toothpaste, Glue, Rubber Cement, Mud, Chewing Gum, Peanut Butter, Shae Butter, Candle Wax and Hair Gel all work great for starting dreadlocks.







Fact: People will try anything but there are products that do the job fast, clean, and with no danger to your scalp.





Shadows Fall 







Rumor: Any product you find that says it works for dreads will work for starting dreadlocks.





Fact: Many products on the market that mention they work for dreadlocks are actually intended to add shine and fragrance and to make corn rows look neater but they don't actually help the dreading process at all. The majority of these shine waxes are made with petroleum as the primary ingredient. Petroleum is a lubricant and products that contain petroleum will feel greasy and cause your dreads to slip apart rather than holding them together. Petroleum products are better suited for African textured hair which has already been dreaded.










Well that's all folks I'm heading to bed night all! 



Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Between the Buried and Me



The one night that I go to bed early at like 8:30 I randomly wake up for no apparent reason awesome....Well I haven't had much time to blog because I got three tests this week one for Biology, one for Math 1010, and one for Medical Terminology I been working my ass off so I can hopefully pass god willing (yes its ironic so shut up and keep reading :p ).







Today was a total eh just another day at school hating about every breathing piece of existence that utter the words Halo (Gaylo, seriously anyone can kick ass at that game if they simply just smash their face on the controller) or Starcraft (Starcrap, Diablo and WoW is the way to go bitches). Honestly do these kids have nothing else to talk about? Music? Life without video games? Perhaps even girls (legit ones none of that anime chick garbage)??






My Jesus of the day today is Affy! I went to her house today and we did the math test review for like three hours she helped me so much while dealing with my mental retardation about the subject and wow I actually feel good about the next test I really wanna pass onto 1050 so I can have it with Nina the bestie!!! and Nate the Jesus of math (he even has the beard to qualify).







So lately I've been really opening up to other genres (shockingly) while still having the philosophy that Metal is the best genre known to man. Mostly it's been indie thanks to guess who (Nina if you tards didn't know that). I've gotten into bands like: Seabear, Electric President, White Stripes (I decided to give them a second chance) etc. I can't quite remember the rest of the names but I think Indie and some underground Rap is as far as my horizons will go. No mainstream Nigga music or terrible hill billy sleep with your cousin in a trailer park Cuntry music.






Well I'm gonna head back to bed you all should watch this vid it's nothing creepy or anything and is only a minute in length so it's really not going out of your way checking out this amazing song. It's so stress relieving well to me at least I now listen to it everyday before class starts and tends to remind me someone very close to my heart .

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