Tonight was a very special night indeed I just thought it was gonna be another regular wedding reception but turned out to be nothing that I expected. When I first arrived at the reception I kinda felt awkward by some of the people who were there. Especially this one couple or they looked like a couple when they asked me if I were a Samson wanna-be which really confused me at the time and then I found out it was a biblical reference which then I felt really stupid about because I haven't heard about the Samson and Delilah story since when I use to go back to church.
So the night was off to an odd start, but as it got later it started to get more fun,after the cake cutting I would think hey were just gonna chill here and do nothing that's what usually goes on at the receptions I been to and then they started playing music this is the first reception where they had party music blasting and everyone started dancing.
I for one am not a dancing type but knowing Nina I knew I would have to dance whether I wanted to or not :). So I danced and had a blast with Nina, Alex, and Jonathon having so much fun right when sadly summer was ending. One thing I saw that was a bittersweet moment was when I was watching Nina's sister dance with her father sure you would see it as a beautiful moment but it made me think about Chelsey when she told me she wouldn't dare dance with our father (who I try to not think of but I don't seem to do well at the time) at her wedding or even let him be there period. I even teared up a little bit (hopefully no one noticed) but got over it and went on with the fun night.
Then another moment happened when we were all in the kitchen and I just had to bring up about my dad again wow I suck at this not trying to think about him kind of stuff oh well sue me. When Nina and Alex told me how I'll turn out better than him it was different this time maybe it was because I heard it right to my face or could be because I'm some how starting to gain some what forgiveness/pity for him but I just wanted to thank you two amazing people for helping me think more about this whole situation. Many other things were racing through my head where I felt confused and sad about but I just smiled and not think about and enjoyed what little time I have left this wonderful summer thanks again for amazing night Nina and Alex!
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